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Name: Charisa
Country: New Zealand
Birthday: 10/7/1986
Gender: Female
Interests: Learning about God. My friends. Christian music. Avalon's Ministry. Dancing. horse riding. reading. scrapbooking important photos. Production Graphics.
Expertise: Well, I'm currently studying Dance, but I wouldn't call my self an expert. Yet. Hehe.
Occupation: Artist
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message me
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AIM:  GreaterIsHeInYou
MSN: Charisa
Member Since:
8/24/2004
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| I had my exam today for ballet. It went well - not perfect, but I wasn't expecting perfect. I truly felt I did my best and I tried to enjoy it. Our examiner was sweet, gave us chances to try again. lol. yay! | | |
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| Thank you all to those of you who have remembered me in your prayers. Tonight was our last ballet "class" even though there'll be much more practice and maybe a few more private lessons fit in before Sunday 11.45. I suspect we'll be running through it up to the last moments will be just prior to going into Studio One for the exam. *grin*
I have felt your prayers, and have noticed I have been able to pick more things up - I learnt the final dance tonight, and Mr.D was so happy with each of us really going through it and polishing it. He just advised me to dance that with all my heart and I'll be fine. I figured out tonight why I enjoy his class and feel more free when he teaches, it's because he really believes in each of us and while there's a place for technical perfection, he knows that that's not the point - he encourages us to just do our very best and make it artfull and inspired. It's really a living thing to him, and I have great admiration for his teaching.
One other thing I've really sensed is a real peace; I've been surprizingly calm over the exam and I feel at peace having resolved to do my best. I also feel really peaceful over anything to do with this and my future, however God directs. I've really felt Him near over the past few days. Thank you for you prayers, I so very much appreciate them.
oh, one last thing - I'm so excited after Mr. D mentioned a piece he wants to choreograph with our class for a performance separate to our end of year production. He's going to choreograph something Neo-classical - similar to American Ballet Theatre's style. (Balanchine, Centre Stage.) He wasn't sure what he was going to do it for, and the Gulf disaster sprung to mind. We may be doing some performances for a fundraising event, so we'll see how that eventuates.
Thanks you guys. It means so much.
Lord be with each of you, draw you near and fill you up, may you overflow with His mercy and grace and may others look at you and see Jesus. May He guide you, teach you and help you mature, may He prepare you for the things that lay ahead that only you can fulfil, may He surround you with his legions and pour out his blessings on you, and may you see all from His hand and willingly give to bless others. May He be your comfort and peace.
xoxo - Charisa. | | |
| I just got back from dance tonight, and our exam is meant to be this Sunday - and my teachers asked me if I thought I should still sit the Intermediate Exam. If anyone has seen Centre Stage here, you'll know that if anyone in the dance world actually asks your opinion; it's either cause you're the prima Ballernia, choreographer, or master - or it's because they're telling you what they think. To be fair, my teacher told me that they know and can see how far I've come and how much work I've been putting in - but depending on the examiner, she may not see the entire picture. They didn't want me to fail and be crushed.
I struggle with my own issues and self doubt and when I sense someone has no confidence in me - I find it really hard to have confidence in me. Imature I realize, but I want to grow; and slowly I am through this process. I've really felt like I do have potential, it's just learning that has made it difficult. I have felt constantly tired in disciplining myself to learn through how the syllabus has been presented.
Dance has become so technical and less artistic for me - I've lost any passion I ever had for technicality. I was drawn to dance because it is a way I can express and bless others - when I began it was a ministry; I wanted to learn more to become better and be excellent at what I do. Not nessicarily the best - or even in the company; that's unrealistic - and I've always realized that; but I wanted it to be something God could use through me to speak to others. I also am confident if He wants to use this - He alone will open the doors. I know also, if this isn't where He wants me - He will lead me elsewhere.
I had a good long talk with Mom, and I feel like I have a little peace for now. She's told me to focus on the exam this Sunday and just do my best. I've resolved to do that, and I'm sure I'll see the Lord's hand guiding whichever way I should be going as a result - but I could really do with your prayer, if you have the time; please pray for my peace, that I wouldn't stress out over it all, that I would be able to concentrate exceptionally well in my remaining lessons to get the most from them, that I'd be picking up the details I have possibly previously missed - and that the Lord will guide our examiner to ask each of us the "right" questions - so that we would be able to show what we do know. And that the free work would be easy to pick up, or that she'd allow us good time to get it into our heads, and then down to our feet. Pray that we'd all have confidence and do our best.
Thanks. your prayer means alot. | | |
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